One of these things I cannot say I lack, because I truly just don't have it; discipline. But, I do all of these crazy races, and tons of them, and my times are not horrible. I appear to be training for my events. So how do I not have discipline? Well, let me explain.
I will start off with focus, since that is easiest. When I am working out or racing, I have complete focus on the task at hand. All of my worries and troubles and the rest of the world vanish. I have no problems here. Getting here is the tough part, since I lack the discipline to force myself here when I need to be.
Secondly, motivation. If you know me or you have read my blog or see the races I do, you will know I am not lacking in the motivation department. My motivation drives me enough to get just enough training in so I don't die at my races and can hopefully be alright enough to drive home or back to my hotel afterwards.
But discipline; this I have none of. I cannot force myself to stick to a schedule, I lack any consistency in my life, when times are tough I cave in from the pressure and skip workouts, eat poorly, slack off, or all of the above. When I look back at my life to this point, I realize that I have never had discipline; something I am always jealous of my younger brother, as he controls the very essence of discipline.
This is not a sob story, just me getting out reality so that I can be held accountable by others and not just myself. It's also a reminder to myself that I have a lot of self-improvement to do.
Although I cannot magically get discipline over night, I will be working very hard towards this. You all know my goals; Boston and Kona. Without discipline, I will never get to either. Therefore, expect to see lots of blog posts, status updates, healthier lifestyle, more sleep, and a proper fitness plan that will help me achieve my goals.
To anyone out there struggling, the first step is to identify your flaws, be humble, and then make an effort to correct those flaws. It's a hard road, but if you make it to the end, you will be a changed and better person for it. Happy hunting!
